I try but can't find the energy
I look in the mirror today
only to see a stranger looking back at me
I can't seem to recognize myself
I am who nobody wants me to be
There is no me, myself and I
for I am my own enemy

People don't like me anymore
They say that I have changed
So hide myself behind a mask
yet still I am to blame
Many do not understand
that anger comes with pain
I loose my temper and scream just once
but the fingers, they point at me again

You're the one who did this to me
I thought you were my friend
Thanks to you I totally hate
the person I now am
Wake me up from this nightmare,
hold me for eternity
and pretend that you care

Running away from all that I have
but I have no other choice
My situation's just so sad
says my traitorous inner voice
Why do I disappoint everyone
I ask myself a thousand times
Why do I suddenly hate everyone
because their all your enemies claims my mind

I'm tired of life
It's all coming too fast
Lost in bitter memories
Trapped inside my past
It's too much for me to take
I'm all out of luck
Too weak to resist the pain
On the point to self destruct

I know you won't appear
but my eyes, they long to see you
I know you're no longer here
It would've been to good to be true
I no longer have the will
nor the power to stay strong
Insanity starts to spill
but I still have to carry on

It's hard for me
Each and every breath
is torturing me
and luring me to wards death
but I'm too scared to surrender
It's all so empty and cold
like an eternal Grey December
Trapped in depression's hold

I've lived most of my life
giving you what you wanted to see
and now you finally know
that person wasn't me
Before my face, a mask was placed
who's only purpose was
to replace distaste and disgrace with grace

All the things they make me out for
"So ungrateful, rude, strange and selfish"
What I'm trying to say here is
Let me be cause it's pointless
 
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