I’m still waiting for you,
But now I’m taking a step back,
A step damned to always have confusion,
Where do we go from here?

I’m attached and will never let go,
Mentally I’m already thinking “until death do us part”,
Even when moving on I’ll still find myself crawling back to you,
I pray that if your feelings leave for good you’ll let me down easy.

Maybe this significant other is just temporary,
I imagine they all will be,
They’ll just give me the warmth you can’t provide for now,
An illusion of goodness tricking me into staying here just for you.

The day you tell me you don’t feel anything anymore,
I’ll be here caring and understanding on the outside,
But inside my confidence about being worthy enough for your love will be
shattered,
Then again you won’t know because you’ll be thinking, “that went better than
I thought.”

I’ll keep that promise of not dieing a horrible death so soon,
Surely I will die unseen to the public eye,
My mind withering away until I refuse to speak,
Eyes staring blankly at a wall while I’m trapped in my own mind and confined
in the white room and wheel chair.

I’ll close my eyes and let my body give out,
A smile on my face because I’m still thinking of you,
My headstone might read, “a true tale of death from a broken heart”,
But promise me you’ll visit this place where I lay still before you pass on
yourself.
 
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