No one knows,
How ready I am to die.
How many times my mind has relived it.
How many times it has happened.

I won't take my life
but when the day comes
I will smile and say,
"Here I am, ready to serve."

Over and over the plots played out
I lay awake at night,
thinking of new ways.
Always completely fatal

Painless is what I prefer
I guess that's my greatest fear.
That the pain I will feel
Will be too much to bare.

But I'm ready when it comes,
I won't cry and wail.
I'll rejoice in the fact
I don't have to endure another day in hell.
 
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