I can't speak what is on my mind
Some things never come out
I feel lost most of the time, and I feel like I made the wrong choices
In life I try and be happy but I can't see them together...
My heart just fails.
My mind cannot comprehend it.
I look away and try to be me
but as life passes I feel I could have kept you from leaving.
My heart screams "WHY"?
I can't take it, I want out;
Out of this place with fire and ash.
A place where I can breath again.
I scream, I shout, "Does anyone know my name!"
I feel so lost with myself these days.
Everyone so caught up in themselves to care.
I feel like I was left behind to deal with your pain.
Can't I be the one to cry on your shoulder?
Can't I be the one to live your life?
To have what you have.
Are you scared?
I am terrified of what is to come.
Why can't your memory leave me alone?
Was it me?
Why didn't I just speak up?
My heart feels like it's going to drown in a sea of blackness.
It hurts to see you.
No one can understand this pain.
No one can understand these thoughts in my head.
All the regrets for the person I lost.
I didn't want to deal with this alone.
There it is: my life as it plays on this screen.
What else is there to lose, except the blood on my battered body?
With nothing else but my memories of the heartache.
What is left but for you to toy with my mind?
Why couldn't it have been someone else you could have been friends with?
Someone else's heart you could have ruined?
Someone else you could have hurt more than you know.
I can't deal with this and your selfishness
I can't deal with you, i can't deal with that phone
and most of all, you and him.
It sounds crazy, you think I'm quiet
ask me anything and listen
you might hear my voice.
But under you, sounds are muffled
Just like the dirt beneath your feet.
 
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