I know I messed up
And I know I hurt you all
But I can handle the consequences
I can get up from the fall
God I’m sorry for what I did
I know it was wrong
But I don’t want to do it again
I just wanted to belong
Please help me see that its only you
Who can save me from all of this
Please help me understand
That you are the only thing I could miss
They all think I don’t really care
But you know my heart
You know how I really feel
And you see that they tare me apart
Lord please I can’t do this much longer
Its killing me each day
I sit there with these people
And I don’t know what to say
They want me to open up
And be vulnerable to this pain
But I’ve had so much
I don’t want to explain
I can cry by myself
In my bed at night alone
I can truly repent
When I’m gone away from home
But I hate it here father
Only you can see
That each day here
Is only hurting me
Because I want to grow
I want to seek you more
But I can’t do this
Not anymore
They all think I’m lying
And maybe that’s the only way
But I can’t pretend anymore
That this is how things are going to stay
Lord I don’t want to have to lie
But that’s the way around all this shit
If I always told the truth
They would always throw a fit
I know this but they won’t ever admit
That they block me from being able to grow
But nothing is going to change
No matter how much they know.

 
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