Heart breaking the truth can be
Denial is no longer for me
Honesty I can never seem to get
Get away with it? No, I'll never forget
Keep it silent, yet you couldn't keep quiet
You make ME look like a fool. You made me buy it
But thank god I have an angel on my side
Who won't let me live this lie
And although it's salting an open wound
I'd rather know the mother fucking truth
I will NEVER leave him, I love him too much
But I can picture IN MY BED YOUR TOUCH
And it sickens me like you'd never believe
I hate the feeling of jealousy
Sleeping over his house while we were together
Don't deny shit, I know you'll deny it forever
Cuz it's such a big deal, don't tell Nik
The thought of all of this makes me sick
Summer of '06, fuck it, it wasn't fucking real
How could you go about it knowing it's such a big deal
And there's SO much proof, DONT DENY!!!!
It's okay, I don't trust you, I know all you do is lie
I hate this, I hate the fights
I wish things could just be alright
I know it was months agio and I should just deal
BUT YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW I FUCKING FEEL
And the worst part is YOU DONT CARE
I CAN FUCKING PICTURE IT LIKE I WAS THERE!!!!
In MY FUCKING BED where I tossed my virginity
You had the had the balls, the fucking audasity
And you still won't admit it, you're a coward I hope you know
As if I don't know, Do you think I'm that slow?
Guess what, he's gunna get off the hook
Because even though this leaves me crying and shook
I'm in love with him, with all my damn heart
And I could never imagine being apart
He hates you now anyway, so there's nothing to fear
I know he loves me and you'll never be here
But all I want is for him to say it
Maybe then my mind can stop replaying it
You, you've fucked up so many times
And as my family and friends ask "Why do you try?"
"She treats you like shit and lies to your face"
"She hits too far below just to win the race"
All I want is the fucking truth
I already have ALL the proof
Because you're retarded and let shit slip
I don't wanna hear you just kissed on the lips
God damn....my chest fucking pounds
I can picture the faces, I can hear the sounds
And everytime I find out more
I keel over and die on the floor
And I call you and beg you for the honest fucking story
But you feed me lies that just fucking bore me
If you think lying is helping your case
Then you need to take a good look at my face
and see that I'm NOT in love with you so I'm NOT whipped
I won't believe for a trade off kiss
I understand him lying, he's scared to lose me
But I'm just glad in the end he choses me
All I want is for him to confess
It would take away so much stress
I'm going to marry this fucking boy
But you...no, I can't be your toy
I thank you so much for helping me get better
Thank you for the memories and notes and letters
I appreciate what we had, but the summer was a LIE
We were together but you were hooking up with MY guy
Please please, I'm begging you to just say it
Then maybe my mind can not replay it
I want some closure, some damn relief
Because I lost my faith in you, I have no belief
Fool me once, shame on you
Fool me twice, my resentment grew
Fool me three times, I'm a fool
Fool me four times, I'm done with you.
 
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