So I’m just sitting here drinking a beer
I no longer have a thing to fear
You were there one day and gone the next
I wasn’t expecting your death

You left me so soon
Not a great warning
I showed up to help you
Not plan your mourning

I’m making it though
One day at a time
But the days never end
Even though I swear I’m fine

I know you would want different
For this heart of mine
I am suppose to have fun
Live life to the fullest
Not be so numb

But I miss you and don’t act like it
I think about you and try to forget
I just push it all back
Not wanting to think about it

I just wanted you to be happy
And now you are
But did you think where that would leave me
How I would really be

Who I would talk to
When I would just want to sit back and relax
How I would go through your stuff
Like it’s really as simple as that

Because feeling nothing is better than something
And something is what I can’t handle
So I just try to stay busy
Get through the day
Hoping it will end in another way

I wish I knew what that was though
How to be different how to be vocal
Talk about it and see
Where that could get me

I guess for now I will just have to wait
Until the day that I await
To see you again in that shining glory
When I can be happy and stop my mourning

 
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