Now you act all concerned about my anxiety,
And you act like there’s something wrong with me.
And I wonder deep down where it all came from,
I know it came from you, I shout vendetta.

Why do you think I turned into a people pleaser?
Is it because I was born this way, doubt that, or
Is it is because you always needed someone to treat you?
You always needed someone to be there and true.
But now I’m letting out my wild side,
The part that wanted to shout fuck you while the rest of me cried.

I think that this might be pretty dangerous,
But letting the world know what’s up is worth the risk.
I’m sick of caring for you, I’m sick of shouting your name,
I’m sick of putting my head down and taking the shame.
You see this shit put some damage on me, made me meek,
It closed my mouth until I couldn’t speak.
But now I took a knife and I tore it open,
This is to you and whatever shit you must be smokin’.

I’m not going to make this seem all sentimental,
I’m just going to lay it out; you’re all kinds of mental.
And it had this affect on me, it’s something indescribable,
But now I found a people who reached out and made me stable.
And they tell me that I should just let it all flow out,
But if I did from across the country you could hear me shout.

I’ve whispered this shit for years to the shadows on the wall,
That deep inside I hold this hatred and it’s made me fall.
Because every time I tried to tell you my mouth snapped shut,
And then all of that therapy couldn’t get my courage back up.
But then they throw me a mike and the words just fly,
I guess you could say these words are me saying goodbye,
To what I used to put up with and the person I used to be,
Now that I’ve opened up that meek little girl could never be me.

I haven’t even gotten around to my land of twisted dreams,
I haven’t gotten to the part that makes me seem mean.
But I don’t care anymore, that’s for another day,
I’ll just let this all sink in and be on my way.
Just remember what I’m saying and don’t try to intervene,
Because I’ve opened up and let out this real me.
 
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