Tossin and turnin with a pillow in my face
Trying to embrace the the reality of this place
This life, this world, and all that's tied to it
Too much to handle, don't want to go through it
I feel like I live it too many times
Too many lines consisting of the same rhymes
There's never closure, the wounds don't heal
The faces are fake but the feelings are real
Kick back to the tracks that define our ways
Singing the songs that bring us back to these days
Trying to find our way through the complicated maze
We'll always love this life no matter what we say
The hurt we can't handle, the words we don't speak
The kiss we hate admitting gets us so weak
The memories that flood, the hope we can't ignore
The thoughts and confusion that we can barely endure
We cross the line when we don't mean to do it
Apologies are just ways to try and get through it
Some sorries can be heart felt, but most are forced
Lying bitches trying to sound better to help their remorse
It's scary knowing what people are capable to do
I really hope you know I'd never do that to you
Do you regret those times? Those moments of intimacy?
Would you take it back? Wish they weren't spent with me?
I know it won't happen again, but that's not my concern
I hold those memories close, for you do they burn?
Life can be rough and kids play tough head games
Bringing down the world just to get through their own shame
Live life to the fullest, love every second and regret
Love the unexpected moments more than plans that were set
Love each flaw and each heartbreak you get in a life time
Cherish every person's heart that you carried and called 'mine'
Love the hook ups and the break ups and the lies that you were told
Enjoy the crazy bitches making scenes and doing shit bold
Live life for the car crashes and getting busted with a joint
Have lasting conversations that never really have a point
Love the depression and obsessions that become too much to bare
These are the times you'll realize the who in your life is really there
Smile when it's probably appropriate to cry
I'm trying to teach happiness to everyone before they die
Because I've been through some struggles
I've been through some pain
I've hit rock bottom, I honestly thought I was insane
But I finally figured out the lgoic to this game
I learned what it means to hold pride with my name
If I can do it, we all can, we can learn to love the sorrow
The key rule to a smile is hope for a better tomorrow
Keep a safe distance between expectations and hope
Hoping is one thing, but it's a slippery slope
Fall in love and except the heart ache that is a given
Find limits on how much can really be forgiven
I love you baby, with all of my heart
And honestly I don't care if it's right or smart
It's not all about you ending up with me
It's about me being what you need me to be
It's about being there for you an making you smile
Knowing forever doesn't mean for just a little while
So enjoy this with me, would that be cool with you?
Let's just enjoy this confusion that we're going through
Because knowing you, I am a phase that won't last
Can I kiss you once more before your thoughts of me pass?

 
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