once tormented memories
subconsciously blocked from my past
are back again, with their chance
to consume me in their haunted contents
to horrify my mind and body yet again


acting like a loving grandfather
-"Sure, you can stay with me, with your sons and daughters."
but that is when everything good came to an end...

just waiting for my mom to pick up the keys and go
he would have his fun as soon as she closed the door
he didn't care about how much he hurt me or what he would make me do
he didn't care as long as he got his share when he was through

those nights when he would pull me out of my bed
his hand tightly over my mouth, so no word from me could be said
-"If you love me, you will come and play with me." he would say
cold tears running down my face, it's not like i had a choice, he would take
me anyway

and on the days when we were alone,
when he would baby sit me when my mom wasn't home
into a locked bedroom or bathroom he would make me go
him and me alone, my shame continued to grow
his pants down and me pushed to the cold hard floor
all i would do was focus on the door

-"please stop! please leave me alone!"
but my struggling only made him angry
-"your not being grandpa's good little girl anymore, now you get twice as
much as before!"
trying to scream, he just covered my mouth, and gave me more
-"Tell your mom one word of this and I'll make you wish that you were never
born!"

he destroyed a good six years of my life
he stole my innocence, my pureness as a child
it's because of him that i had become suicidal
and now because of the molesting prick
i can't stand to be touched or kissed

so let this be a word of advise to you all
to never trust anybody
and never let down your guard

 
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