Dear God I beg of you make my pain stop
Make my heart stop
Make me put down this razor held across my writs
Give me the courage to look death in the eye
Instead of being slapped every other fucked up day

Blood red sky from were my heart was ripped out
Fuck this world
And fuck you all
It’s not my fault you can’t feel my pain even a little bit at all
As tears fall down my face I can’t breath
I can’t eat and I can’t sleep
Jesus Christ this pain is so deep
The pain that runs through my veins freezes my insides every day
And to every person who watches my die every day a little bit inside
See when I come to your rescue
When you want to cry
When you want to end it all
And when you want to die

Oranges blues and purples and pinks
Can you feel me as I sink?
Down to the bottom ever so deep
Stop breathing stop seeing
Feeling nirvana as I suck water into my lungs
I die slowly but surly

I wake up with sweat running down my face
Wondering how my life got this fucked up anyways
As I sit and as I stare I wonder what life would be like
With out me in it
And as I slip back into unconsciousness I breath in one last time
And tell God I don’t want to die
 
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