Letting you know
I'm not gonna call
I'm just gonna go for a walk

I can't call
I know I need to
I really just need to talk

But I can't
I won't
I don't want to wake you up

I know you said to
I know
But it's so hard for me to trust

So instead I'll go and walk
I'll sit thinking
The longer I wait
I feel like I'm shrinking

I almost wish it were raining
I need to feel a change

Sitting there
watching, waiting
Trying hard to remember his face

It's so quiet out here
so much running through my head
this silence will be the end of me
I wish I could pretend

I really hate to say that
I'm not sure why I did
Most times I wish I could go away
I feel like such a kid

But don't worry about me
I really will be fine

I really shouldn't say that
I really hate to lie

But it shouldn't be your problem
It shouldn't be up to you

All these things I have to say
not something you need to go through

So I'm going to be more stubborn
I'm putting back up my guard

I really want to let you in
So I know this will be hard

I can't tell you everything
So I'm saying that I won't

You'll want to say different
But I'm asking you please don't

I really do have reason
I really just can't say

I'd love so much to tell you
there's so much in the way

The only way I could tell you
is if you promise that you'll stay

But there's really no way for me to know
There's so much to hide
So much to show

I'm so afraid you'll let go
 
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