Would it hurt less if I had no blood
All wires and circuits running through me
I'd rip out emotions if I knew it could
End this aching pain inside of me

I envy the computer in front of me
It just follows commands and keys
It doesn't condemn my mistakes or sees
The negative of everything in me

I look at the clothing store mannequin
Empty eyes staring back without a soul
That is me, I say and grin
As for the other just a black hole

If I were a robot would it kill the dreams
That prevent me from sleeping at night
Having feelings just really seems
To hold me back when I know it's right

I want my memory wiped clean
Defragged, upgraded and tested
I really just want to become a machine
To know that my life's purpose is not wasted
 
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