The termites in my restless mind
Feed on the empty calories of fear
The clock slowly ticks away time
I lay in cold sweat knowing dawn is near

Why do I dance in fires of self destruction
And surf the waves of sabotage
Maybe I fear my only function
My purpose is a shallow mirage

Twenty years on the planet
And I just can’t figure it out
Twenty more and I’ll be my parents
I can’t wait that long, I lay here and shout

I have to know now why I’m here
I’m growing sick of the daily grind
It’s making me dull and desensitized
There’s no love to be found here
I know that I’m not blind

I come home to deathly quiet and turn out the lights
And lay here coming down from the night
Glitter hides salty tears on the pillow
And I weep, weep like the willow
Hanging my head low

Don’t remind me of days in the past
All the same, love never lasts
I’ll flash a smile and take their cash
They’re all the same, it doesn’t last

The termites crawl under my skin
Telling me it’s about to begin
Beat back the pain with another dose
Forget the night and sleep alone
In dawn’s gray sickly moan

 
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