I know who I am and who I'm not.
I'm not perfect and I do make mistakes.
I've loved you one day from the very next.
I lie in bed at night, tears that soak up my pillow
because I lie in thoughts of you.
I do not love you because I need you.
I need you because I love you.
Despite all the fighting and all of our mistakes,
all of which I can forgive one for,
I miss your tender, soft kisses upon my neck.
Your fingers and your grip on my waist.
Reassurance that you'll always be around.
Your smile and the light in your eyes,
guides me to a safer place.
Escapes this pit of hell in which I live.
In which is only a hell because it lacks you
your presence, your loud spirit, your kindness.
A hell where I only want to run away.
Where to will I run,
I have no idea.
Where I want to run,
would only be into the arms of somewhere warm
Somewhere safe and secure.
A place where I know my tears will go away.
A place to where the world is never a sad place
Never a dark room
and never something to run away from.
The place where I know I can be free
from tears.
Where I can just sit and smile for awhile.
I won't have to run.
I won't have to hide.
The scars will fade away.
The fate seeping throughout my blood.
Where I can feel one thing at a time.
All that's great....

I sit,
staring at the computer screen.
Wondering where it all went...
Where did my happiness go.
Where did you go?
Are you there?
What's happening?
All I can feel is the heartache I'm left with
and the tears all over my face.
The salt in my mouth tastes so bitter.
Life is wonderful.
But only when you're around.
When you love me.
When you care about me.
When you tell me how you feel...
When you tell me,
I see right through you.
I see the man hiding beneath all of it.
I see the love of my life.
A figure appears next to me
while I lay facing the window.
He is kneeling on the ground..
His head resting upon my bed
Looking at me,
Watching me sleep.
As I open my eyes,
I see the love I had never had from one before.
I see the home away from home.
And I see where I want to be..
I see the hero who takes my hand
knowing how self-reliant I am,
but doesn't want me to carry more than I can hold..
I see you.
 
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