Once again I sit in the dark with this painful feeling in my chest.
After everything I've done, I'm still not good as the rest.
I pride myself in treating people the way I want them to treat me.
But look through their eyes and what do you see?
Someone who isn't worth anything more than sex...
But once they get it, they're on to the next.
Do you see the one that no one wants?
Now do what they do. Act like you like me and taunt.
Do you see the broken boy that I pretend is dead?
The one with painful memories replaying constantly in his head.
Do you notice the scars on my wrist from the helpful blade?
The one that so many times, almost led me to an early grave.
Do you see the dried up tear tracks on my face?
Because although they are dried, the salt I can still taste.
Do you feel the panic attack approching because of all that I hold in?
Can you really understand, why I don't want a friend?
Can you see why I tried to lock myself away from "Love"?
But couldn't because I believe in the father from above.
Now take off their eyes and look through mine.
Wipe the tears away...See, the sun still shines...
 
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