I feel like I can’t breathe.
When will this ever end?
When will all of this disappear
and leave me some kind of peace?
When will the hurt, hurt less,
So I can finally move on?
Who am I to say I’ve tried,
Then act like nothings wrong?

When will life get easier?
How long will the happiness last?
Before it back fires and shoots me,
And ends my life here.
Never knew what love was,
Until love it’s self broke me.
Twist and turned me inside out,
Until I was too blind to try and see.

Can’t say I’m hanging in there.
No,
I can’t even speak to get the words out.
Yes, most of me has been abused and violated,
Attempt of self-mutilation to escape.
So I try to stay close to the faith.
In hope I’ll one day feel it’s encouragement.
An embrace I’ll never let anyone give,
That I pray I’ll let myself feel eventually.

A feeling of love I’m crying for.
Acceptance that will some how appear in thin air.
A miracle willing to be mine,
Instead of the fear that’s owned with tears.
So tell me there’s an end to this.
That the pain will only make me stronger.
Tell me I’m capable
Of putting myself back together.
 
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