I’m sick of my life and how everything special always ends
What’s the point of living if your life is full of sin?
When you don’t have caring kin
When your always getting beat and emotionally hurt by men
With this razor blade watch me cut deep in my veins
I don’t know how much longer I can stay sane
There’s too much pain
I’m always to blame
After this no one will remember my name
No more games
Watching crimson colored liquid pour from my wrists
People played with my emotions just to see my life twist
Then hurting when I caught my man and this girl performing a kiss
I thought being with him would be bliss
He told me that if I ever cheated he would be pissed
I should have known our love would have ended like this
What am I suppose to do myself
I only wanted you for your love and not your wealth
You were the only thing that helped me stay in good health
I remember the exact place you knelt
You kissed my hand and asked me to marry you
But I knew better than to believe your words because I knew I would soon be
screwed
Your love was too good too be true
I now stay blue
I’m green with envy and red with hate
Baby boy after this what is our fate
You always told me since I was 8
That we were sole mates
How can you relate
To how I feel
You never felt this way you can’t even be real
Now the pact is sealed
It’s like I’ve been killed
But by mental actions
You rather lose me to a few minutes of satisfaction?
Seeing the blood stain the white carpet makes me think even harder to back
in the day
When you and me were just little kids and we would stay out after curfew
just to play
What do you have to say?
That you were wrong and that you should have never done me that way
Exact words that I wish would pop out of your mouth
But right now all you are to me is a louse
What about the haters that seem to just know how to get under my skin
I just wish their days would end
My emotions are so easy to bend
And they’re so hard to mend
I’m ending this now…….


 
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