I’m scared
My body is paralyzed with numbness from fear
I hold in my hand, a tool
A tool of bloody destruction
I am the holder of my life
Caught in strife, I don’t know what’s right

Memories of pain flash before my eyes
My unfinished attempts leave me scarred both physically, and mentally
The things I once loved, they have effaced from my mind
Leaving me bleak and emotionless
My eyes are an ocean of tears
I’m lost in them and I’m drowning

Who is there to confide in?
No one would understand my thoughts
I stare at the wall, looking at my grotesque shadow
The brief appearance of my evidence of existence
Ideas chime through my head
Thinking of how it might feel to be dead

I’m bleeding now
The fountain grows bigger
I feel isolated from everyone
My feelings pour out of me like a waterfall
I don’t think I can move anymore
I am now just a memory contained in a cloud of nothing

 
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