I was so afraid
that you wouldn't accept
this truth inside of me,
a lie I'd always kept.

A lie full of shame,
were eating becomes plagued,
and I have beomce someone else,
denying the need to be saved.

My body's being eaten away,
in this game there is no winning,
because I still see myself as fat,
even though my face is now thinning.

Even as I lay here
on my death bed,
a machine keeping my heart going,
a tube keeping me fed,

I still need to be thinner,
still hate myself,
still feel lost,
and I still deny that I need help.
 
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