Long, long, so long ago
When I still had dignity
I used to spend my nights with you
We'd laugh, and play, and read
The stories that you told me
Were burned into my mind
Oh, these stories, Mom, I'll keep with me
Though I'd rather let them slide
Back when I had honor
When I had respect for you
Oh, Mom, those days were golden
Those days were far too few
Back when I had innocence
And not a broken heart
Back, so long, so long ago
You ripped my childhood apart
These days, I wonder, what we had
As I looked upon another
I see myself, and you again
I see a loving mother
I see the people, trapped in time
Of what I had so long ago
I was just a baby then
They have grown up though
I almost pity, what they have
For reasons far unknown
I see you, with them, mother
Though my eyes, their lies are shown
I see the way that we are now
I see what you have done
The truth, after the smoke clears
But this battle I have won
So when I'm gone and your alone
And your without a child
Would you fake me one last faint hello
Would you fake me one more smile
Would you tell me that you hate my Dad
Would you tell me "Go to Hell"
Would you risk a love, that was never there
I know you all too well
I know you'd do just what it takes
To feed me one more lie
I used to listen, to your stories
Though inside I would cry
I'd remember all the things you said
About my loving Dad
You tried to make my mind believe
That hes the one thats bad
As if I knew the future
And my outcome, all the while
I never listened, then, or now
But at least I faked a smile
And I suppose that I was right
When the wrong had intervened
I knew our lies, were easy seen
With this hatred inbetween
For you, and Dad, have finally left
And with Dad I have come home
With Dad I live my life again
One I can call my own
One I can live, myself
Without the hidden lies
That led to me, just hating you
Through drifting, tear-soaked eyes
I guess whats done is done, you know
So I write this loud and clear
When your dead, and I don't care
I'll still have my love here
I'll still have someone, brave enough
To hold my shaking hand
As I relive my childhood
I become a stronger man
We both knew these lies, dear Mom
Before we went to trial
We knew a family, wouldn't last
But at least we faked a smile
We knew that nothing more was left
Theres nothing more to see
But knowing you, I know much more
I know what not to be
It gives me such an honor
To write to you, again
To take our love, your only love
To mark this all "The End"
I know that you are reading this
Alone, without a child
Faking, your last goodbye
And faking your last smile
 
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