sometimes i feel like a fish out of the water
i can still survive, but not for much longer
whenever u say that u love me
it just makes want to hide for eternity
i know i dont deserve anything
except for each scar given to me
if i lived for one more day
who would care if ive gone away
when my parents see me, they see a failure
an under acheiver
all those who harrassed me
all my teachers who said i was lazy
i let their words get under my skin
my self confidence was wearing thin
im not gonna let it bring me down
til im 6 feet under the ground
what i have now, wont matter in a year
what i have now, can easily disappear
sometimes all i want is to get out of this place
to be completely gone, vanish with out a trace
who am i kidding?
i'll never have the guts for hiding
the friends i have
can turn their back
and never turn around to see me
my life has already betrayed me
im just tired of being invisible
while everyone else seems invincible
my words are never heard
until they're most obsurd
each familiar face means the world to me
despite how i'm nothing of any desiring
yes, im depressing
yes, im hurting
what u say to me, i take to heart
how u treat me, makes me fall apart
i dont know if i deserve it or not
i know i blew the one shot i got
im almost proud to say im not like the rest
but being different isnt so great
reality is still coming too late
i know im nothing special or unique
i know the fears i can never defeat
i wish i was beautiful....inside and out
but inside, im just full of doubt
everything i am, i can never live up to
dont trust in me, i will only disappoint u
no matter what my best is
its never enough to control this
no matter how much i love
its always too easy to show that u
dont really care about me
because i know u dont really
my words are cannibal
and pitiful
there is NOTHING i can say
and nothing i can be today
to make u realize how much i cared
how much i want u to be there
u will never understand
what it takes to be a man
u can never love someone
u can never undo whats be done
u can never love me
because u will never see me
for who i really am
all the pain u've inflicted on me
u can take it all back easily
just say u love me...and mean it
those three words mean anything and everything
and...i.....love.....you
dont ever forget that


 
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