you're too busy caring
all about me
to notice her
and you can't even see
because i'm the one who's different
the lost little girl
and because i am awkward
she is only a blur
don't you see her depression
and her soft desperate tears
as she cries and she drowns
and can't control her fears?
no, you're too busy worring about me
and what i might do
because i am insane
but you don't have a clue
as you worry about my suicide
and my bloody wrists
she sits and she cries
while you think of her bliss
you say you want to help me
but she needs your help more
can't you hear her screaming
each louder than before?
she shrieks
her voice lavish of innocence
but you are deafened to it
because of your ignorance
your ignorance
to provide me with attention
and you can't even remember her
by her name being mentioned
she has the perfect life
perfect family and friends
perfect love, perfect hate
perfect fights to mend
but perhaps her perfectness
isn't really there at all
did you ever consider an illusion?
for she has built a wall
she built a wall
to keep everyone out
but she built the wall weak
wanting one to break through
she wants to know that someone really cares
about her, and not her popularity,
or her looks, and her things
all she really hopes is for one to see
but you can't remember her
and you can't see
because you're too busy worring
all about me
well i'm a survivor
i can take care of myself
i've lived this long
without anyone else
i don't need your help
but if you'd look closer
you'd realize she does
and not i, the suicidal loser
and as you're trying to help
i just stare at her
as she cries her eyes out
then she finds a cure
she lifts her head up
out of her hands
she grabs her keys, leaves
and shuts the door with a slam
and you didn't know she needed you
because you were too worried about me
you didn't even see it comming
and now you can't help her needs
i'm sure she thought of you
as she drove madly off that bridge
and her tears only helped
the water flooding in
and so now you want to help
but you want to help too late
told you i didn't need you
and now you hurt yourself with hate
but now i realize
why you couldn't hear her screams
why you couldn't tell she was in pain
because you only saw her dreams
but i saw her nightmares
i saw her wounded heart
i saw how she wanted someone
to heal her piercing scars
she just wanted to hear
the words, "i care"
she just wanted somone with help
to always be there

 
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